true story
there are just some things that need to be said
seems like i still haven’t been getting much sleep lately, stupid frame! been tossing and turning, playing the pillow shuffle all night [and now all morning] while trying to avoid pin pulling [yeah that’s right, the pin pulling against my skin which leads to pin tears. yep, tearing skin. fun times.]
what else is new? well besides the annoying pain in my ankle i have been getting lately that is. have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow, going to bring it up to him but whenever i ask for pain meds he’s so reluctant as if i am a fiend so i’ve been rationing my pills which means not so restful nights or days. i mean they do realize that i am bound to be in pain w/ everything going on with frame right?
final strut turns on saturday then it’s the waiting game. last doctor’s appointment doc says there’s no timeline till frame removal, but needs to see bone growth in the area first. i like having a timeline, it gives one hope for that glorious day to come. well i survived a frame for 12 weeks before, i guess i can do it again for an indefinite time. [sigh]
can…not…wait!
the moment when the painkillers finally kick in
first real snow fall of winter. it always looks so pretty from inside. i am not fooled by the pretty. i would give anything to be laying poolside or lounging at a beach somewhere just as pretty but most importantly hot!
attempting to sleep comfortably with this blasted thing is like trying to…trying to…i dunno what it’s like but it is gosh darn impossible. so i shall wrestle with these blasted pillows, shifting and shuffling till sleep takes pity on me and allows me to finally drift away. night night
4 something in the morning and i haven’t slept yet. not like i have anything to wake up to. man that sounded morbid but you know what i mean. my sleep schedule is wacked out and so now i am up at this ungodly hour, xfinity app paused on an episode of ‘the big c’, looking at my leg thinking how beat up it is and trying to muster up enough will power to get up and go pee. tmi?
came across a folded bag of laundry in my closet that i didn’t get around to putting away before my surgery. folded skinny jeans, leggings, few dress pants [that aren’t dry clean only of course] and 2 pairs of relatively new pants i actually need to get hemmed [btw self]. i thought to myself, ‘man you never know how good a pair pants feel until you are wearing a hoodie, hoping the heat on your upper half somehow radiates to your scantily clad legs.’
lethargic
feeling a bit blah lately. been sleeping throughout the day, mostly because i don’t get much sleep at night but also i can’t feel my leg while i’m asleep and time goes by. now if i actually didn’t have things i needed to be doing with that my time [sigh].
beginning to feel the stretch and it’s no bueno. not painful really, well i lied there is some pain, but mostly discomfort. reminds of a joke someone made about the last time people’s limbs were stretched was the inquisition [lol]. hey at least i can laugh about it.
x-rays after 16 days of lengthening
the reason why i had to go the hospital this afternoon [sigh]. after turning the struts this morning, i heard and felt a pop. it was certainly not a good feeling. found out it was a part of the bone that was still connected breaking. sounds lovely aye?
look what arrived on my birthday last week, my new warby parker glasses! decided to go with #2, thatcher frames but in tortoise. didn’t take them that long to deliver, just took me that long to order.
practicing my sexy wink, you like? [tee hee]
already looking forward to being really back on my feet. why did i think it would be easier the second time around?
