i promised myself i would stop being lazy and post something today.

6.23 - a year since the surgery. just got back from the gym about an hour ago. the  idea of an hour long cardio workout wasn’t even close to my mind on that day. i remember being a punk, asking for my mom in recovery and having the tech hold my hand past the time she had to leave. i remember wanting to take the breathing tube out of my nose because it made me feel like i couldn’t breath but the nurses kept telling me i needed the oxygen. i remember the pain, and the pain killers. i remember waking up in the middle of the night to go the bathroom and the night nurse freaking out because i got out of bed and probably stepped down on my foot [i blame the pain killers, lol]. i remember the many days that went by this past year wondering when in the world i would get back on my feet and what would happen next. what’s next is still somewhat up in the air but at least i know how i’ll get there. on my feet and crutch free :)