from her lips to God’s ears

a conversion re-told from memory between myself and a black male co-worker
me: where are you from?
co-worker: southeast dc. where are you from? let me guess, maryland?
me: yes, montgomery county maryland
co-worker: you seem like an around the way girl
what does that even mean? [lol] does asking the question prove his point.

at my last temp position a co-worker [same one as above] would jokingly call me Tamika. at first i chose not to respond to him and then told him never to call me out of my name again [lol]. but as my last day arrived i felt compelled to ask him why he called me Tamika, his response was that i could never be a Tamika. maybe a Judy or Stacy but definitely not a Tamika [lol]. i asked about my name Abisola, and according to him my own name doesn’t fit me either.

now all of this was done in harmless jest but the point he’s making is clear: as a black suburban girl i sound or act differently than a black girl you might meet from southeast dc. growing up i’d heard it all the time, the you don’t sound black comment, often passed by other black people. thank goodness i never let anyone else define my blackness. i guess i always, ‘figured look at me? what else could i be?’

(Source: unapproachableblackchicks)

when i’m nervous i have this thing yeah i talk too much
sometimes i just can’t shut the hell up
it’s like I need to tell someone anyone who’ll listen
and that’s where i seem to f**k up, yeah
i forget about the consequences, for a minute there i lose my senses
and in the heat of the moment my mouth’s starts going the words start flowing

one of the many reasons why i pre-ordered her album a month before it comes out on itunes

octv presents: ‘step! clap! go!’

celebrating five years of Target’s GO International program. Target is bringing back 34 dresses from past GO International collections. launched march 13

man, i look awkward! lol

8 months later, slowly getting back on my feet [or should i say foot rather].

spring 2010 featured some cool chicks, this is the year of the movers

i ♥ rachel roy

bill gates wants to eradicate polio in india, nigeria, pakistan and afghanistan in the next year

looks just like first vlog [lol]…eh maybe i’ll show some face next time.

first personal video. do i really sound like that?

what can i say but skillz

and the music vid is mean, check it!

2ne1 - it hurts [live]

minzy’s [black hair+bangs] voice sounds amazing. my fave song on their album

my last 2ne1 post for a while, promise. lol

rachel roy + some pretty cool chicks = love

behind the scenes at the rachel rachel roy spring 2010 look book shoot with nina sky, vashtie kola, brandee brown, julia frakes from bunny bisous, and ashley bowman